Let me tell you a little bit about me…
People often compliment me on this incredible life I seem to have. It’s true, life is good. It wasn’t always this way though and - let’s be real - it’s not always all roses. There’s light and there’s shadow and I take them both. For me the key is freedom and the doorway is my shamanic practice. This is what I learnt:
Freedom really is a state of mind largely independent of external circumstances. No news there. But knowing this piece of information is not enough. It has to be understood, not only intellectually but viscerally. It was only once I experienced this in my body that I got it. And this is what freedom feels like to me:
I don’t want to escape from my life, not even on bad days, mostly. Instead I strive to appreciate all that comes - and a lot of good comes. I don’t feel the need to please anyone or to prove anything. I feel good in my own skin. I feel like I don’t need to hide any parts of me but I learnt to build healthy boundaries. I know that my reality is mine to create. I know that leaving a window open for serendipity yields magic. I know that almost all is possible. I don’t feel like this all the time - I’m a work in progress - but on most days this is my reality.
If this is something you too would like to have in your life, are ready to show up for yourself and put in the work, then I can help you. Get in touch.
How I got here…
When I was about 6 years old I spent many a sleepless night wondering about some very specific questions: What was there before there was nothing? Where does the universe end and what is beyond it? What happens to me after I die?
Well, let me tell you, it drove me crazy that I wasn’t able to rationalise any of it and I felt a huge relief when I was finally allowed to go to school and be (temporarily) distracted by all the knowledge to be absorbed. And life went on.
I’d been searching my whole life and most of the time I didn’t even know what I was looking for. I called it all kinds of things: adventure, fun, love, happiness, education, career, success, shiny objects. You name it I’ve probably chased it. I went to school, got a great job, a husband, a whole bunch of shiny objects, travelled the world… and still wasn’t quite happy. Something was missing and I couldn’t put a finger on it. Then, triggered by a series of fairly traumatic experiences, I found yoga and meditation and over time things greatly improved. But yoga only took me so far, something was still missing and I still couldn’t put a finger on it. I don’t blame yoga, I guess I just needed to hear it in a different language: more common, more relatable, more earthy.
It was only when a good friend introduced me to the shaman with whom I had a deeply transformative session - and who later together with his wife became my teacher - that things fell into place. I was ready to leave my old life behind. Through shamanic work I finally understood what I was looking for and how I was going to get it: